Well I have finally come back on to check my deviant page. been so busy between working full time and training to become an instructer in my two karate class, I pretty much done. Oh and there is that other thing, what is it.... ah yes a new love. Aside with that last journal entry and the people it envoled, I have a new girl in my life. I actully kind-of set this one subconciously, I guess i can say, because I started to talk to her alot, and didn't realize until after school ended and I got things start in my head, that I really liked her, lucky for me, I had her Number.. Anyways, Her name is Amanda,(betaman knows her), and we have been dating almost 2 weeks now. It doesn't seem that long but when you look at the at the days through the eyes of someone in the relationship, the days seem quite long indeed. Ah, I never get used to that feeling. It was funny when I told Kevin(betaman) about this, he said "I knew it, I knew it! I was counting down the days ever since I saw you two talking." It made me laugh but know I must wonder: did we really hit it of so well, even when both of us were preoccuiped with other relationships. I don't know I'm just happy that we are together and that the relationship has lasted long than a week, because other then my last X, none of my previous relationships have gone past a week, which is quite depressing I might say. I guess that explains why I'm always so worried about when I like someone or when I get into a relationship, because I don't want to expose my heart to any more pain. Yet, I still find Admiration of myself, as well as other people do (I believe), because no matter how much it gets exposed to, I always manage to put on that big goofy smile, toss aside my own problems when my friends are in need, and just move on I guess. I don't know how I do it, but I just do and thats that. But for right now I see through, quite pleased, eyes, And I must say it feels quite good to be in love again.



now if I could only get it the same for Betaman and Aoi....hmmm....*ponders throughly*